I hated the way I looked, and felt truly horrible about myself in every way.
I wasn’t pretty.
I wasn’t smart.
I had zero confidence.
Weighing about 48 kilo, I considered myself chubby.
I didn’t have any friends.
I was depressed and alone. My boyfriend at the time was no help, he preferred when I didn’t talk about it. He took advantage of me. I used to cut myself, and when I couldn’t hide them I began pinching myself incredibly hard instead. Just to feel SOMETHING.

I never expressed my feelings, and as a result I pushed a lot of people away, people close to me. They thought I didn’t care. I lost friends. My relationship was falling apart.

I spent 2011 trying to look up, but it wasn’t working. So on NYE 2011 my resolution was to “love myself more, to have better self-esteem”
That was my mission.

And I have.

I changed little things, like making a conscious decision to eat healthy foods, I started exercising. This helped me make my thoughts more positive. I broke up with that boy, and things started to look up.

I will never let someone hurt me like he did. Not again.

I lost a few kilo, learned to express myself and my feelings a little better.
It wasn’t easy.
I spent more time with friends. Met a boy I instantly liked and now he’s my boyfriend. He’s an incredible help, always complimenting, and making sure I don’t put myself down further.

This year I’m wearing my first bikini in 3 years, and I’m okay with it!

Last week, I got my belly button pierced because I am good enough. It looks good and it reminds me that to get it done, I thought I was good enough and that I am.

So here we are, almost a year after I made it my mission to be happy with myself, and I almost am.
There’s still that tinge of doubt, but I’ll get there.

I AM good enough.
So are you.